finally school reopened monday
but i had to skip lesson tuesday already due to dental appointment.
if not have to wait until next year then have open slot.

i dont have a good feeling about this year.
because all the classmate i dont know.
if need to do teamwork sure die.
i dont wanna die yet.
not now.

feels horrible to not be productive.
for 2 weeks already, did nothing. at home. stare at walls.
i dont know what to do already.

hope you get this message.
thx

6 weeks of lazing was not what i had in mind.
but i am a real lazy bastard.

offered a "job" by red moon
but it was too abstract for me. cannot stand it.
( also the pay it offers / to the distance travelled )
+ my faith in it - need to attend free lessons(training)
= absolute give up

i hope i can get a job soon.
really cannot be sitting around like that

brain crisis again last night.
horrible to not be able to know what myself is thinking
which is ridiculous.
so annoying these crashes.
now still feeling the leftovers.
ARRRRR.

human emotions. so weak. so annoying.